WTF?

I didn't remember that I had this blog ._. my english now is worst than when I start to write here, and that's obviously 'cause I have stop using it, I just see movies in this language and I can get it, but besides that I don't write or anything, anyway I may re-start this :D 

Glorious day.

Having a good time, I want to do everything right now: clean up my mess, cook something delicious, do my homework, read some novel, do exercise, dance, write, practice my English, my maya, anyway I'm full of energy, so this is a big day, I'm going to make the most of it.

Access of happiness...

Having great weeks, yes finally everything is getting better and better :) and it's 'cause I already get used to be alone here in Merida I mean I still miss my mom, but now I can stand it.

My subjects are just amazing and I'm learning a lot, I'm starting to learn Maya and it's too hard that I believe I had to do more than my best to achieve it, but I'm happy with this :)

Me

Just wasting some time, I'm already in front of the computer, looking desperately something to do with all the free time I have after school, I've tried to write, but, my mind isn't being very helpful and I know why, but though I know it, I don't wanna to accept it, because I need to do something, to put back all this bull shit that is almost is drowning me, but he doesn't get it, he just wanna let me being depress, I almost sure he already give up with me, and who can blame him??? I'm just a waste of time, space and air.

Who wants to buy me a life?

Yeah, I'm still being depressive, the reason is pretty easy, mom left me, well not exactly left me, she needs to go to my home to work, you know economy is not good at all right now, but anyway, in someway I felt like that, I felt like if she was trying to leave me nicely, and I thought "who wants to buy me a life? or better than: who wants to buy my life? is almost new, and nobody will miss me so here it is almost free just for a moment of happiness, so who wants it? I wont regret."


Yes I know it changes DO NOT help me, in fact I hate them, I like to think that this new depression is just for that, the hateful changes.

Happiness is so bitch!!!

I've looked for her since I realize I wasn't (am not) happy, but all my tries have failed, of course that makes me believe she´s such a bitch, because I know a lot of people that have found her just without know it, without tried it even a little, so I guess she decides who's going to have her, and she didn't choice me.

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hehe that was me being a depressive person

When the new life is almost the same that the old one

Well the things in my life haven't changed a lot, I still use the computer almost all the time, but there's a new thing, because there is some of hope and that's weird and good, hope in my life, that's something I hadn't guess before, and it feels good, really good xD